Thursday, May 01, 2014

Of Cough Syrups and Examinations

If I could find a way to see this straight
I'd run away
To some fortune that I, I should have found by now

And so I run now to the things they said could restore me
Restore life the way it should be
I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down

Twistin' at 4:27 AM
Tuesday, March 25, 2014


And it is the last week of undergraduate classes. Never did I expect this day to come so quickly back when i was still in Ramsay Hall with Ben. Never did i expect myself to go through so much drama. And most certainly, never did I expect to be 'close' friends with different groups of people as each summer approaches bar the few who you know will stays no matter what.

The weakness of the foundation of what we call friendship cannot be any clearer in such a phase in our life. I've said and shared my views with many on how I cannot imagine myself to be friends with the abundance of people i consider more than an acquaintance but the truth is its never easily reconcilable. It sucks that things change, dynamics get adjusted, people drift and while sometimes it's involuntary, it is at times voluntary. It's like folding the 2nd nuts because you are so sure he has the nuts. You never know of course because there is no showdown but you convince yourself anyhow.

"The people that I admire the most are the ones who have learned to come to a balance with their feelings. They acknowledge that things never did work out with a certain someone, but they choose not to resort to an extreme: of throwing everything away out of spite or malice, propelled by rejection or injustice. They can still find it within themselves to be in the  middle: not giving everything up, but not giving everything in either."- Just about one of the few non BS crap you read on TC and it was shared to me by someone. But it doesnt provide a plausible cause of action for someone who has been known to try this balancing act multiple times and failed miserably on most counts.

I will probably do a massive reflection of the 3 years for myself when this shit we call exams end and from then, I embark on a new phase in my life and maybe i will finally see the light and know how to deal with it all.



說了是無情　寫了更無情　都作無情人何必再寫信
既然已無心　何苦在用心　一封信就輕易把過去寫成幻影

Twistin' at 7:50 PM
Friday, March 21, 2014




Twistin' at 7:58 PM
Sunday, March 02, 2014

矛盾



Beautiful face, beautiful voice, loop x100

Twistin' at 6:33 PM
Thursday, February 20, 2014

溫柔



Twistin' at 4:39 PM
Friday, February 14, 2014

The REAL 2014 is Here

CNY back in Singapore is still so surreal after being back for 1 week. The experience back home recharged some much needed batteries for my entire state of mind and despite the money spent it was definitely all worth it.

Well screw the actual calendar on that note because right now I'm going by the Lunar New Year Calendar. On yuan xiao jie(last day of the new year), I receive both my offers from Cambridge and LSE, bringing some much needed encouragement and motivation to what has been a shitty past 1.5 months. Despite the whole debacle created by some fucker frank, I still got in and I consider myself to be rather lucky. Now to make sure i dont mess this up and somehow not get my first class.

On the same topic, not sure if its intentional by the guys up there but the good news came right on V-day as i prepare to spend a 24th consecutive V-day without a legit date so that kinda offsets the disappointment of what might have been this year. Talked to the s42 peeps on the whatsapp grp and the V-day celebation in 2008 was brought up and i still remember what it was like in VJ. Cookies were made, cards were given, the whole notion of love was negated by the MUCH stronger idea of friendship and I'm glad i have these bunch of people always there for me back home and its 7 years into my friendship with them. Here's to many more V-days spent reminiscing about our VJ days!

Twistin' at 10:26 AM
Sunday, January 19, 2014

掉了



Twistin' at 5:34 AM