Evolution is my metamorphosis

Sunday, December 30, 2007

its that time of the year everyone dreads. as we come to an end of year, we look forward to something new in the next, hoping it will be good but we dread going back to school. as of now its 30/12/2007 at 4 55 pm. i am left with half of maths and many pages of gp thing plus my initial plans of revision is an absolute zero. if you are in a similar state as me, do not worry because this is where resolutions for the next year come into place!

you see its so amazing that by setting resolutions, you feel less guilty that you wasted your life in the previous year because you aim to do better in the next. guilt is such a powerful emotion and no one likes feeling it.

having said this though, out of 100 people who set resolutions, maybe 1/2 a person fulfills it. but no need to despair, although it is saddening we never fulfill them, it sort of gives us a direction in our life for the next year. i am sorely tempted to write a mega summary of my life this year but 1)i am too lazy and 2)i need to continue on homework later. but i think i did blog about significant events for the year so thats the summary of my life-in my blog archives.

without further ado, on to my resolutions for the year 2008

1) study hard for A levels and score at least 4 As and a B in 5 subjects
2)go out less often
3)listen during lectures
4)spend more time with my family
5)be more appreciative of my mother
6)be committed during the final stretch of council term
7)study every week with wg and javier

now to set resolutions you must have a reason for doing so and not just set for the sake for setting.for 1)it is obvious is to do something good in my life and not waste my 12 years of education and not be able to make it into a university. for 2), i have been going quite a lot this year and in the process spending lots of money. i could spend these time and money on other more productive things. 3)i have not learned anything from lectures this year and i think if i start learning something, i will save a lot of time on re reading the lecture notes to understand.4)i have neglected my family quite a bit, refusing to go for outings and eveyrthing rather spending time with my friends or sleeping at home. afterall blood is thicker than water and family should be my first priority.5) i am not proud of this but i am rude to my mother at times and always fail to appreciate all she does for me. i think it is high time i repay my mother for all she has done for me and the first step is to appreciate her. 6) next year will be when everyone will be busy since its an A level year but i think i should not let this be an excuse to slack off. i made a commitment to council last year and i should go all out until investiture. 7) this is just a ~~dumb~~ idea wg came up with but i guess revision will be important next year.

may 2007 be a good for year for you all and let 2008 be a better one!

Twistin' at 12:49 AM

Thursday, December 27, 2007

its been hectic the past 1 1/2 weeks. i think i only got 1 night of at least 8 hours sleep if u exclude tonight cause i am free tomorrow!!! WOO! I AM FREE! NO OGL STUFF! NO GOING SCHOOL!NO WAKING UP AT UNEARTHLY HOURS LIKE 7 am or earlier. BUT.......got homework to do. i have been putting it off so much and continuously reassuring myself i have time which i dont of course. so now basically in a nutshell i am screwed for homework. lets hope i can finish it in 2 days.

on a more festive note, merry 3rd day of christmas people and happy 17th birthday to huiqing and jermyn.

Twistin' at 7:12 AM

Friday, December 21, 2007

too tired to post anything much so just some small updates. today's ogl training camp was quite fun. haha i think we cheered the explosion cheer so many 1000 times that every og knows it already. but i still think its cool nevertheless.

then after that me and the lame one chin hao crashed the vhall. cannot tell anyone if not later ___ will get into trouble. but it was only to bathe cause i have no idea why the school is so dumb as to lock the toilets. so anyway we went to mike's house for a 433 gathering. met quite a number of my classmates, turnout was great.had a great time crapping around usual and we dwelled into many unthinkable topics rated r-21 of course. then ms chia came and we had to talk about other things.LOL. i really miss life in sji so so much. though teachers have left in the short one year. quite a number of teachers that taught me have left the school including mrs martina chan who was me and mark's favorite teacher last time. it was quite shocking to be honest. mara has left too and i guess sji feels different? but what it has taught me for the past 4 years and how it moulded me into the person i am will definitely not be forgotten. ora et labora!

random but this is my favorite valour cheer

EXPLOSION!!!!
ARGHHHHHH
BOOM BOOM SHAKE SHAKE THE ROOM(x3)
VALOUR VALOUR
FLASH OF DOOM!

Twistin' at 8:25 AM

Sunday, December 16, 2007

you know something i really wish i can turn back time and relive my life from secondary 4 to now another 1 million times before i go into j2.this is because from the time i enter j2, my life will whiz by so quickly i will not have time to think about the times i enjoy in the past.

i really think i am wasting my life away this holidays. i must be one of the few slackers who did nothing productive this holidays. 5 weeks of rotting in china has been continued by more rotting at home. i am so lazy that i dont even want to go out with my family. my attempts to do homework are all half-hearted and i at the rate i am going i will never finish my homework. people around me all have done something useful this holidays such as going for attachments or going for OCIP/immersion trips etc and the only thing i can say i achieved is watching finish 297 episodes of dragonball =.=

when wang guan was telling me on what he wants to do in the future and what he wants to study, i do not even know what to reply him when he ask me what i want to study. in fact i am really impressed by what he wants to achieve and everything. he even has his ideal job in his mind. my gosh i have no goals in life now. so what if i get 5 As in A levels if i do not know what i want to study. i would be better off bumming now and quitting school and trying to make ends meet by working as a cleaner or something. no skills or education required.

haiz really dont know what the fuck is going on with me these few days. i keep thinking that my life has no purpose. zzz. i sort of know what i want my life to be like in the future but without knowing what i want to be i think its just useless. i want to study medicine but its difficult to get in and i need to waste 10 years of my life studying if i ever want to earn a reasonable salary and be a somebody. i cant even survive another year of intense studying let alone 10. i think i might be interested in aerospace engineering but with taking physics being the biggest mistake in my jc life, i cant see how i can excel in studying that. i want to travel around the world but i cant think of any job that pays well and allows me to travel around except being a pilot and my dad is not exactly very supportive of this idea. my childhood ambition of being a lawyer is also way out. i cant even piece a proper english or chinese sentence together now. this is very shocking cause i always consider myself to be relatively fluent in both my languages. i dont know why this is happening. i can just join the people who speak neither english or chinese but a mix of both broken of course.

well the good news is i still have around 1 year to know what i want to do and also 1 mroe year to achieve something in VJC. i should start reading more to improve my chinese and english.

on a really random side note welcome back javier!

Twistin' at 1:20 AM

Saturday, December 15, 2007

today's banner painting was quite lame actually.i was super sian and had the dont wanna do anything syndrome. we had 50000 people painting. i ending up giving morale support to everyone. then me and jeanne were deceived by aravind. but in the end i helped with the touching up and stuff when most of the people left so i guess i was not entirely useless.

was tired to the max. slept 2 hours and woke up. i am still feeling tired. i have no idea why.band concert yesterday was quite entertaining. me aravind and hangs were the only representatives from 07s42.(taima and dhilshad do not count cause they got free tickets so they cannot be considered supporters) i really miss band a lot seeing all the trumpeters playing. the vj concert layout is about the same as that of SJIMB and i will always take the extreme right seat in any concert i perform in. i can even remember who i sat with. oh well but i was telling darren ho that joining council was not a bad thing, in fact its great being in council but perhaps not continuing band will be one of my regrets.

i want to go for AJ and CJ combined concert but got nobody to go with because most of the SJIMB people from the batch who will be interested are performing =.= so i am praying that the fat thing does not suffer from severe lack of sleep after his camp so he can go.

life is getting pointless now. i have nothing to look forward. ok maybe orientation but i do hope i get a rocking OG like IRHUMBA! because if i get a real boooooring OG, i will just cry.but then again being an OGL we are supposed to prevent such things and turn the most boring OG into a crazy one. next week is going to be a crazy week with OGL activities/irhumba outing/maybe class outing?/cam's and jeanne's concert/stayover at javier house/christmas party at gwen's
with that said i should continue with homework before i run out of time. perhaps life is not so pointless for me after all. oh the irony. guess its all in the mind

Twistin' at 5:07 AM

Monday, December 10, 2007

PICTURES!