Sunday, July 26, 2009



Twistin' at 3:04 AM
Sunday, July 19, 2009


3 days of book in and we are required to rate our peers. not very LOGical but well guess they cant blame me for having 20+ similar or rather identical comments for the many people i do not know yet. and in the greatest of all ironies, i find myself going for homecoming despite saying i was not interested at all to so many people but oh well i get to meet up with the 24ths whom i have not seen in ages. so many things to do so many time. i wish i booked out on friday =(

Twistin' at 4:38 AM
Saturday, July 11, 2009

random random

i caught obsessed today instead of the very awesome sequal to 20th century boys because i was tragically outvoted. at the end of the show, i must admit i was SCARED shit by the stalker girl and i finally understand how women are the most vicious creatures. in totally unrelated news, i just enjoyed a nice bowl of tauhui with pearls with soyamilk. and now that i am full, its time for bed

Twistin' at 9:38 AM
Thursday, July 09, 2009

nostalgia?

Headed down to SJI followed by VJ today, both were impromptu decisions. It was heartwarming to meet all the teachers who still remember you despite having taught you 7 years ago. The toilets finally got an upgrade, the need for lockers was finally seen by the school administration but other then these, everything remained the same. Still the same old SJI i left 3 years ago. The sec 1 kids reminded me so much of myself back then. The dark stairway at the old sec 1 block still do not have lights. The 'typical' sji trait is still pretty prevalent, the cheekiness and all. Even the cai fan uncle could remember us and he even gave us a discount. Of course the focus should not be on the discount. yanglaoshi mentioned something to us which i felt was very very true. Each batch, sji students will always come back to visit and when they are asked if there is that one thing they can take away from the 4 years in SJI, what would it be and somehow there can never be an answer. It is perhaps one of the intangibles or maybe the entire experience was a takeaway on its own. Whatever the case, it felt really awesome to walk past almost every teacher who you seem to know and vice versa.

At Vj, it was an entirely different story. For one, there was nothing to remind me of the life and fun i grew accustomed to in VJ. I then found out it was CTs. Collected my leaving cert, attempted to look for cook only to find out hes not in school already but i am used to disappointment so i guess another trip down is gonna come soon. But unlike in SJI, i walked past teachers, many of which i cant even recall their names and i definitely dont expect them to know me. It was great to have seen Mr Lum, the only teacher i met who taught and knows me but the first thing he said was oh i heard about you interview and alas, that made the resentment grow again but nevertheless i was glad for his concerns as he asked me about my plans and all. Despite the bad start when he first came in, at the end of A levels i think hes probably the best teacher we had in terms of teaching and also giving of advice.

At the end of 2 short trips, it made me realise that my prominence in VJ was nowhere near the level of that in SJI. In SJI, being a PSF and a UG leader practically made you a god. Most people will know you including the sec 1 kids and even teachers who have not taught you before would somehow know you. In VJ, all i have to be proud of is being a member of the Students' Council which if translated to a RJ context, is just another councilor which is not THAT impressive. I regret not trying to pick up another CCA thinking back. To be honest, not getting an invite back to college day was painful for me. Evidently i was under the false impression that contribution as an EXCO member was significant especially for council. I cant help but feel a tinge of jealousy when every VJ person in Delta wing is going back except for me and that is not a very comforting thought. Ok actually almost all but still! I might sound like i am very eager to stand out.This might be true, as being an extremely competitive individual since young, the prospect of trailing behind my peers is a position i never want to put myself into. But then again in SJI there was 1 Agung, in VJ, there are at least 50 of them so i guess this could be a reason why. At the end of the day further highlighted by the events of today, i do not feel i have made much of an impact in VJ or accomplished anything much. Yeah i made it to Mr Ho's scholarsheep group thing but so did another 100. And you wonder why i show no interest in going back for the homecoming dinner. But dont get me wrong i think i have said this before the experience was still awesome and the friends are wonderful but on an individual level, it wasnt that desirable. Just some thoughts i had on the way home...

oh yeah and just cause ara left a tag, heres a shoutout to all that his place is pretty awesome and the coziness more than makes up for the slightly ancient look to the place. =)

Twistin' at 5:11 AM
Tuesday, July 07, 2009

hardcore

back from brunei. camp was run down but food was awesome. welfare was awesome. but the jungles sucked. rock climbing with 30+kg of load is not funny at all. after completing that climb, it didnt help that we were the only group who decided to be garang while the other groups chose to skirt around the knoll. wet and cold nights led to more that normal contact with my buddies but i guess i finally understand what it means to bond closer together in a very literal sense. i was so close to being quarantined for an extended period of time but thank god i managed to make it back. i cant imagine how it feels like to be isolated for another day. but overall, i think the experience was one that makes you feel accomplished but you definitely wont want to do it again. if what we did was only the tip of the iceberg then to all my infantry friends, though it offers zero consolation, it really sucks to be you.haha. many 'fond' memories. many occasions of holaning and falling down. many near death experiences of my mates dramatic enough with its reenactment worthy of a shot at hollywood. so that signals the end of my brunei adventure and one thing is for sure, i wil rather shoot myself then go back there again for training. and now my next adventure at kranji camp awaits me. but for now, a week long block leave so please ask me out people!

Twistin' at 6:16 PM