Tuesday, June 21, 2011

emo nemo

Its never easy saying goodbye. I was never quite good at that but maybe its because i have never said goodbye to someone i really cared for except maybe for my dad when he left for china. I was never quite the emotional kid but within a week, i come to realise that 2 of my very good friends, possibly 2 of the best friends I've ever had are going away in the next few weeks. Thats life. It was correctly pointed out to me that with age, quantity of friendship decrease but quality increases. 07s42, SJIMB, Irhumba, 07s64, SC, SJI, army. Who stays close and who drifts?

I'm glad and happy one of my close bros found the love of his life, however complicated the story behind might be. But truth is, i find it hard to relate considering my love life has been an utter failure. This is not self pity, this is self evaluation. Wasted 2 years of my life chasing the impossible dream and i find myself in the same situation, not that far off, its been a little more than a year. Different girl same story. Its pathetic. I mock those jokes who wallow in self pity over that girl who wasnt worth all that sorrow but I think i am not that far off. I hate myself for being so vulnerable to social norms. I hate it when relatives ask why dont i have a girlfriend. But i think above all, I need to really really really meet some people. Come on university please come quickly.

Now to bury myself in some walking dead

Twistin' at 9:38 AM