Saturday, April 02, 2011


Get It Right

What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?

'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
So I throw up my fist
I will punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send out a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Its tough when you try to make things right but the damage has been made irreparable. Am having a struggle to find my motivation at work with the cadets now gone. I have now realised that the interaction i had with my colleagues were merely out of necessity. Its sad to know that you are the one who doesnt belong and in retrospect it was probably my own doing because i chose not to hang out with them in the earlier months. How there are 2 distinct groups and not belonging in either of them. I am not sure what is worse, that both groups really dislike the other or the fact that i am the only one with no one i can call a friend. Its a feeling i have never felt before, the feeling that i dont belong. I mis Jin Yang, i miss the squirm, i miss the JC batch of instructors, ken tat, malcolm, guo nian and the people i used to hang with. I probably was quite a fucker at times during the last course and i did try to make ammends and i have apologised but oh well its a fact of life that we choose our friends.

At least the understudy is coming soon and the course will come in a couple of weeks.





Twistin' at 1:34 AM