Friday, December 24, 2010


Well it has been quite a while. Its not because i am busy. Its more of having nothing interesting to blog about.

Outfield this week was a real disappointment for myself and my team and no amount of encouragement can do anything to make me feel better about this. I take the responsibility for failing to ensure my team was proficient in what was required out of the exercise. It can be complacency or perhaps sheer laziness but nothing changes the fact that with all that bullshit about wanting to exhibit professionalism in the training of my cadets this has not been done. I feel demoralized, i feel angry, i feel frustrated but maybe a part of me just doenst want to do anything about it.

Totally screwed up my MINDEF board interview and with that, it probably cost me my shot at the highly coveted and prestigious SAFOS scholarship. Having breezed through the SAS board and getting all the positive reviews from the post-board, it probably made me feel less inclined to prepare and go on with the very false idea that i was sufficiently prepared. BUT then again with all that shit on the last minute prep for Safari i probably wasnt in the best state of mind prior to the board.

But this week hasnt really been all bad. Well the smallest things take my mind off things and i am grateful for those.

Oh yeah Merry Xmas everyone!

Twistin' at 7:55 AM