Wednesday, February 24, 2010


Today i met my cousin's ex boyfriend on the bus. It was a little bit surprising and i though for a moment when i saw him we might have just turned away not realizing we knew each other but it turns out i am pretty recgonisable for the way i look and i, tend not to forget people. Anyway point was we had a short but decent conversation about uni and all. Hes in his first year at NTU, on a scholarship and all, it seems he knows what hes doing. I am never in a position to comment but in my opinion he is a totally changed person from the person my cousin broke up with. The power of love? The power of a desire to prove another wrong? My version of the story of their break up is a blur so i cant say for sure but in any case it was good to seeyou today dragon.

Past few nights were spent in camp. Left me just about enough time with BSB on my ipod to get myself geared up for this sunday and also to think about life as i always do. Book in was always going to be a sucky feeling but the past sunday, i booked in more than that being a little bit confused with perhaps a tinge of emoness. But I am glad for friends who are there to talk to me. I am tired and sick of it but some things are just there to stay. And it really sucks.

Had a short msn via OA with nicholas aw today. For people from LOCC, you put these 2 names together and everyone will remember the day we almost fought. Those were really the days. But things have really changed since then, i saw past his flaws, he saw past mine and if we see each other on the streets now i think it wouldnt be that weird. He is going to sign on that dotted line before me albeit without a scholarship or an LSA at best based on what he tells me but it is what he wants and i guess that is what matters.

So what do i really want? Had a short but very mighty indoctrinating sharing by CSPO yesterday at arti aniversary dinner($64 that feels like a $6.40 based on what we ate but i reserve my comments to myself) It turns out i am where i am because of 1 line i said to my EX CO which was 'Sir i am actually a little bit interested in signing on, probably in artillery' and i find myself at a supposed redundant position to know the formation better. I am a little bit surprised but nonetheless glad at the opportunity provided.It makes me want to grasp this opportunity even more. It is true when they say in SAF, they really go all out to attract people to signing on. I dont deny that after that little conversation, i started to get a little bit excited about signing on again. That of course contradicts what i said a few posts back hence the sentence at the start of this para.Meanwhile though, the streetlamps on path B to sime darby remains lit as of now and after tomorrow perhaps things will be become clearer.

I found this song on my cousin's computer recently and remembered the days when it was my favorite song. Somehow i can relate or maybe i am just emo. But screw all that because BSB are coming this sunday and they ROCK(still)

Twistin' at 5:25 AM