Saturday, May 23, 2009


i am not much of a fan of sci-fi movies but star trek was really good. enough romance/action/thrills and pretty much of all the stuff the critics are saying. after the show and within 3 minutes of trying on a shirt, i bought it. please tell me i am not being a spendthrift in this climate of economic downturn and what have you. but then again i am doing my part as a consumer to boost the aggregate demand. speaking of which i miss lessons and learning about all these econs stuff. which actually brings me to my next point. on whether i should just heck care and accept fass. part of me really want to do something more than just graduate with a degree from fass. but passion over practicality? i dont even know which i will choose.

nightbird is coming up with an awesome 16km route march followed by scorpian king and of course theres gonna be ippt. i dont even know if i can get that gold or survive 2 consecutive fieldcamps. my right leg is already half destroyed. numbness in thighs for the past 4 months and now coping with an ailing knee. wtf man. i dont even know if i can survive service term let alone ocs.i really hope i dont stay in the infantry. ch offers no consolation in telling me passing my soc and getting gold for ippt is half the battle won to stay in the infantry.talking to wg and lucas last night, their lives seem so good. 2 more weeks to POC(not even a parade) then they are gonna go off and lead slack lives in army for the next 20 months. but i am a high achiever, sometimes perhaps so much so i become an underachiever. it is a worrying trend that all the goals i have set for myself as of now seem such a long shot. scholarship, studies overseas. what i have now-a scholarship board which toyed with me for the past 4 months before telling me its so unfortunate they cant schedule me for an interview. _l_. a teacher which cocked my application and now trying to make ammends. somehow they are inter-related and do you think saying sorry after you screwed me actually helps? to be honest i was so dam pissed off last week and i am so tempted to start an entire flaming post but its almost lunchtime and i am hungry so this story can wait till 2years later if i am still in this sorry state i am in now.

damn this post wasnt supposed to evoke so much emotions within me but somehow it did.

Twistin' at 7:45 PM