Sunday, October 12, 2008

family matters

while everyone is mugging their asses off(me also actually) i took some time off the past few days to spend time with my family, my maternal and paternal side and the experience is really different. for my maternal side i spend much of my life going out with my mum,sis,aunt, 2 cousins and grandma. it has pretty much been a routine for the past 18 yrs of my life? okay 14 since my younger cousin is only 14 this year. i have grown so emotionally attached to all of them and the close proximity of our homes(5 mins drive at max) meant that there were times where we just see each other everyday during the school holidays. the age gap between us is 6 yrs from oldest to youngest and because of this i have so much fun when i talk to them and when we go out its always filled with laughter. i treat my cousins as sisters and my aunt as my second mum(acually i already call her mum) i really love this side of my family.

today i went down to visit my grandpa and also get my hair cut which was becoming increasingly irritating. the norm was that my aunt would be there and with her 2 kids aged 5 and 2 and my uncle's wife with her 3 kids aged 9,8,4. greeted with loud screaming of fun but mostly of quarrels i would just shake my head plug in my earphones and get on with finding something to do. occasionally, my grandpa comes out of his room which is usually closed. perhaps being the oldest grandchild and a boy also, i always got the better treatment from him and once in a while i would engage in conversation with my grandpa. most of the time though tis mere hi byes. dont get me wrong i do care for my grandpa too. i was pretty worried for him when i found out he had high blood pressure and i always ask him not to smoke which he is stopping already which is good. and i fondly recall when i was young he used to bring me everywhere, he gave me my first bike, he was the first person i would run to when we arrvied at his coffee shop to have dinner which was a norm back when i was very young. but as i got older, the less i visited him, and probably the less attached i became with him. my cousins? with the one aged 8 speaking like a gangster and showing utter disrespect to everyone, i gave up trying to talk sense into him. the irony is that whenever i hear people spew obscenities i would be disgusted thinking to myself ill-bred. but when i am angry and i say the same words, it just seems to be okay. so maybe i am not in the best postition to comment on it. but still 8 years old and i saw him pointing a middle finger before. wtf man. but of course not all my cousins are liek that. its only him . perhaps bad influence ins chool and my uncle works in the night shift, he sleeps in the day and works in the night, which might explain why my cousin is not discplined enough. in all honesty i cant click with any of my cousins. yea sure they were cute when they were yougner but as they grow older they start to be irritating except lester. i like lester a lot hes the only one i bother talking to when i see. hes still only 4 and from what i can see hes gonna be a real intelligent kid. always able to rebutt what you say not in the rude sense but the cute and funny sense, hes a real likable child and all.

but the point i am trying to make after all this is that spending time with your family over time, will definitely make you more emotionally attached to them. take my maternal and paternal side families, i will pick going out with my grandma and aunty over going to my grandpa's place anytime.but the most important thing that i found is that my family is what truely matters to me now. for too long i neglected my family choosing my friends over them but i grow to know that friends come and go but family sticks by through whatever shit. not that friends dont of course but for family they will never never leave you behind. blood is still always thicker than water

oh and for those who read till here you must be very interested in my life. XD.

Twistin' at 7:07 AM