Saturday, March 15, 2008

random

wow i really been blogging super regularly these past few days. these extra days of freedom has been really spent enjoying myself to the max.

anyway today was ODAC's DARE thing and the councillors had to go down to help them since we owe ODAC super lot. they really helped us with lots of stuff last time. my duty was a route marshal and to be honest i think i was totally slacking and useless. i have no idea what is up with me this year. no motivation for anything at all. i was just enjoying myself sitting down and playing my psp making occasional glances to look out for teams and guide them. if i was an ODACer i will be real pissed with this useless helper. why did i even ask him to help in the first place if hes just gonna act like hes at home. yes i do know it when i am slack. i am really conscious of it. and if anyone from ODAC sees this by any chance just want to say sorry cause i doubt i was much of a help. i do not want it to be this way but i have no idea why i cant help it.

lately my posts has been all pessimistic and about sadness and agony but dont worry i am not going to be suicidal. its just a phase in life i suppose.

similarly to that which arsenal is going through. arsenal has not been in the greatest of form of late and i feel real disappointed at times when i watch them play but i will remain a gooner for life and fight with them all the way till we win the title and champions league.yay!

but yes back to a more serious thing, this supposed phase of my life termed by myself of course. somehow i feel really indifferent going into 2008. those who i have confided in will know why. it seems i am putting in a lacklustre performance in everything i do now. i know i can put in much more just that i do not give in that 200% which i am more than capable of. i just enjoy lazing on my sofa sleeping similar to what i did today after i got home with the tv on at the same time. i guess i would enjoy being a bummer minus the fact that i probably will suffer for the rest of my life with no proper income etc. i would like to thank those who have listened to me talk about these lame crap problems i perceive to be facing. i guess listening to emo music will not exactly make me feel better and cheer me up. but its a habit. and to compound my problems further my ipod is facing a difficult stage in its life pretty much like me. i feel like just throwing away the damn thing which works only when it feels like.but i realise i am digressing again. for now i guess what i can do is to put my 200% into everything i do from now on. show greater commitment in this final stretch especially for council. there are things i want to make happen and i really hope they materialize.

well that comes to an end of an utterly random post with random rantings. hopefully i get over this phase soon so i concentrate on my life and making the best out of this year.

Twistin' at 5:45 AM