Wednesday, July 11, 2007

awakening

been thinking abt stuff again these few days, myself as a person and i guess i came to yet another conclusion. wat daniel told me at CLIC camp really woke me up and set myself thinking. i guess i really dun like to be known as the retarded person in council. with my exceptionally highly extroverted character, its unlikely for me to tone down on my fun loving side and usually i still do work when i need to, i fufill my responsibilities when i need to, bt guess wat pple see out there is the crazy, 'funny' counciller out there doing stupid things and nt the one who does work behind that side. nt that i want pple to know and gain credit, cos thats not why i joined council, to gain a reputation bt rather have fun and memorable experience. i guess on my part, i shld start being lesser of the spastic self i can be. many of my SJI frens lost their 'lameness' and retarded self when they gt to JC and i guess i toned down too. bt too bad, it still comes out whenever i am high and stuff.bleagh. why am i such a retard sometimes. =.= doing stupid things which i have no absolute reason why. saying things which i know i dun really mean bt wats said cant be taken back i guess, or in some cases wat i dun say.

bt despite all these, i really find myself really lucky to have made many great frens thus far in VJ. i do nt need to name names, u guys know who u are =) thanks for always being there whenever i felt shitty, thanks for beign there when i needed to share my problems and yea, thanks for eberything. i stated at the start of the year that the only frens i wun forget are those in SJI, bt now i know i wun forget any single one of u guys. and theres the one who makes the most difference in my life. nvr really said this before i think bt getting to know u was definitely one of the best things to happen to me.

JC life is kinda sucky bt i guess i will pull through

Twistin' at 5:11 AM